8:00 AM
Sunday, April 26, 2009
{tell me things that i wana hear}OMG. OMG. OMG.DYK WHAT DAY IT IS?! its a happyhappy day for a happyhappy girl called ELLE TUSYA BINTE SALIM. she is now as old as me. WHOOPEEE!happy birthday my dear angel. remember those letters we used to write to each other in sec 1 - sec 2? hahaha. then we were in the same class frm sec 3 - sec 4. and we bitched and laughed and cried like nobody's ass.remember the 50 rounds arn cedar? we lie flat at the staircase behind the canteen after running, 11 rounds eh? hahaha. cnt rmbr.remember syf, where you would say you are melting and pisang would go behing you and catch you? hahaha. and oh, hairnet! do you even still have it?and then the soul garden thing, where we bitched like mad and ate till we wanna die? after racial harmony. aha, irony!and the thailand trip! you were with donut and i was the lampost? HAHAHA. omg, thailand trip. then we were scared to open the window. ahahaha. and we tried so hard nt to rosakkan the bed sheet so that we can snuggle in! and the plain water, that we had to gobble down, but went to the sink to throw it! HAHAHA.elle tusya, i have a present for you. its nt as astravagant as what you gave to me and im sorry im not able to bang on your door yesterday night. im trying my best to find time. i hope i find it soon. but just so you know, you were in my thoughts and dreams. =)all the best fr yr years in tp. i know you will shine. like you always do, and always have. muacks! =)
10:04 PM
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
{one more time, with heart}we won again. its 12-0 this time. GO VJSG! it was 7-0 for first match, 10-0 for second match. and now its a dozen goals. my heart beats faster and faster whenever the balls get near the goal. hahahaha. =) amazing job girls.this got me thinking, will i ever be up to their standards? slowly, but surely. i can. i knwo i can. (iscoredagoaltdayanditmademyday)ok, now im fugging sleepy. byebye world.
7:05 PM
Sunday, April 19, 2009
hello. im kinda back again. i kinda read sth smwhere and it made my heart stop. and after i read those words, i cnt bring myself to read on any further. i realised sth. no matter what, nothing changes that much. ppl are still the same. i cnt believe what i read. it was a mere few words but it hurts like mad. i sometimes wonder if i am just a 'fly on the wall' to you. it hurts, sure does. bt nvm, let me take the pain by myself. maybe i am being over sensitive. maybe she didnt mean it that way. but you know what? maybe she did. maybe im not 'good enough'. oh shucks, my evening is spoiled. fuck the world.
6:40 PM
{because i was hot like that}
lemme say this again. i miss my longer hair. I MISS MY LONGER HAIR. (and ps, it has never went past my shoulder since primary 1. HEHEHE)
ok hello world.
i donoe what i did the past two days. i dont want to go to sch anymore. i wana stay at home and rot to death.
slept at sis house yesterday. blablabla. got myself a 130 bucks dress. yes, i did. idk when im ever gonna wear it, but i guess i have to cz i was so gatal that i wanted the dres and now i have it means i HAVE to wear it no matter what. ok, teehee.
i hate sch. vj is so fun from the outside. whoever said vj is like cedar, deserves a mega huge slap across his fucked up ass.
hahaha. BUT KIDDSSS! come to vj, come to vj. you will find your own ways to enjoy it. i love vj cz of many other things. haahaha. wth.
SEMARAK TEMASEK. aku tak kisah ah. KITER SEMANGAT SEMARAK TEMASEK. kaum victoria, aku cakap aku tak kisah. aku nak menang jugak. HAHAHA.
wah piang, skali lose. lose lose lah. what to do if judges have ahembadtasteahem. but i trust that they dont yaaaah. HAHA, i wana win. but if we do lose, then fine. WE ARE STILL WINNERS. cheyyy. HAHAHA.
this is a stupid post and im fugging hungry.
AND OH, I BUMPED INTO ELLE TUSYA JUST NOW! YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!
10:53 AM
Saturday, April 18, 2009
{tell me why}1. i miss that hair.2. i dont want badam to grow up so fast. he can ALMOST walk now. :(3. i dont have any idea if i would get back to my old not-so-fair skin again.4. i hate missing trainings.5. i hate my stupid fucked up blocked nose.6. i want to shred my entire file with the notes and tutorials inside.7. i want to invent a machine that will iron my uniform for me without me lifting a finger.8. i want to be like torres. fat hope for this one.9. i want to sleep and sleep and sleep and sleep.10. SAYA NAK MENANG SEMARAK TEMASEK.nak tahu why? so that i know that im not such a fucked up loser who sucks at everything in life. if i have a talent, it is hiding what i truly feels. and only on stage do i have the permission from the world to not be myself.and that, i would kill for.on the pitch, i will work my ass off and chase my ass off for that ball. thankyouverymuch.if you should know, i am in a super foul mood. as foul as your stinking asshole.if i continue, more rubbish will get out of my mouth.so byebye.
8:46 PM
Thursday, April 16, 2009
{im nothing without you}ok. OOOOK.i have not been updating. i know. life is so hectic nowadays and i dont think anybody bothers to read this blog anymore. ahahaha.i seriously have to stop failing my tests. hahaha. yeah sure, stop failing. urgh. nvm, can one.we won MI 10-0. all the way girls! i love kicking balls. yeap, I LOVE KICKING BALLS. i shall push myself even more. EVEN EVEN MORE. =)))semarak temasek. i will miss the meetings and time spent. i am somehow wishing that the competition day wont cm, cz i enjoy the drama mama. hahaha. wth!just now, went to tj for the dry run. OMFG. we made so much noise, but thats how i love it. AAAAAAAAH! SHYAZA! ARINA! S(H/Y)AFIQA(H)! AYESHAAAAAA! HAHAHAHA. she frigging groped my mouth, my boobs and she messed up my hair.. ALL BECAUSE OF A ***! i tell then you know aaah! hahahaha.and then, there is 'amirah. she cried, i cried. do you know how much i miss her? i suddenly felt this rush of emotions. i miss her like crazy. remember our $3 thing everyday? ohmy. we have to go out one day.talking abt gg out. i think i should just forget it, and stop talking about making dates with ppl. i miss elle like mad. i miss amirah like mad. and i miss nasha like mad. sch is sucking my energy and my money.OH OH! music fest! hahaha. =)and thankyou joshie for the cookie! hahaha.and i miss kiyah also! remember this picture? hahaha. thats me on the ground, i miss cedar ncc.
6:42 AM
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
this song is for you.i miss you.
6:26 PM
Sunday, April 12, 2009
{cant do it alone}
hello. im back from kl. it was pure sinful food + sleep + shop and daddy at work. hahaha. i know the roads around better than the locals already lah sia.
missed training again. wtf.
i have a pile of work waiting for me but i dont have any energy to pull out of me. grr.
and you know what world?
i feel so empty the moment i get home.
i want my friends. i want to have fun with my friends. i want to laugh with my friends. i wana sing with my friends. are you telling me, its two years without my friends?!
friends. amirah, nabila, elle, hafiza, shyaza, tammy and manymany more.
i miss elle tusya esp. shes gg off to tp. (chey, macam jauh maner) shes gonna look pretty in her pretty dresses and her pretty hair with her pretty eyes. shes gona make the boys dig their eyes out. hahaha. omg, i miss bitching in physics lesson with you. maybe you will find another one to bitch with in your uber huge lecture hall. maybe you will find another to talk about her fat legs, her ugly haircut, her stupid fake smile.
AHAHAHA. i cnt believe i am crying now. wth. i actually miss cedar a hell lot. tho there were unhappy bitchy moments, where i was saying how i wish i can run off to jc NOW and make new friends. stupid stupid me.
come on time, fly faster. ZOOM PASS ME.
friends, if you are reading this, i want you all to know that i miss all of you, to bits and teeny veins.
and marlium, how do i live without you. and nurul, you are like the cherry on my cupcake. hahahaha. wthhh. =)
7:35 AM
Friday, April 10, 2009
{who say dont believe?}ok, im gg off. like now. i wana die cz i wana sleep.
10:46 PM
Thursday, April 09, 2009
{when you change your skin, let yourself loose}OMG. so many things happened.firstly, season started with a brilliant note. all the way girls! ALL THE FRIGGING WAY!secondly, no school for three days. HIP HIP HOORAAAAAAAAAAY!thirdly, semarak temasek is coming. OMFG!forthly (fourthly?) i am soooooooo FRIGGING DECOLOURISED. my leg is all mixed up. from toe to ankle one colour, ankle to knee another colour, knee to start of shorts freaking burnt, under shorts all the way to shoulder another colour. i feel like a monster.oh. i had an awesome time screaming ym head off during the boys' match just now. 14-0. POWER OR WHAT SIA VJ! WOOOHOO!! =)hmmm, i have to go pack my bag. gg kl till sunday. miss me biatches.and oh, NAK MENANG TAK? hahaha. damn good. =)
6:47 PM
Tuesday, April 07, 2009
{omg}im at pasir ris.byebye.and btw, you are ugly.
10:11 AM
Sunday, April 05, 2009
{hold me, love me}OH MY JAMALAMA! lemme tell you about my smartness ok?! WOOHOOO!!while i was squirming on my bed, wondering how to do my e-assesment cz my wireless not working, it SUDDENLY struck my brilliant mind. if wireLESS not working, then try WIRE only ah!AND SOOOOO, i did it. now im back to view the whole wide world. YESSAAAAHHH!omgah, cnt live wtht internet manz. wheee! ok ok, here goes. i dug out all the picts over the period that i was MIA-ing. nah, amik kau.lets start with yesterday. it was one of the most memorable day of my life. (was that correct english? heh.)so there was MTP in the morning, so no training. =( after the extra boring principal talk, had to go for the debate CIP thingy. me (timekeeper) marlia (chairman). HAHAHA. daamn funny. but yeah, i so cannot debate/stand debate. sit also cnt. its so damn boring and scary. i cnt scream or sweat or run. it was suffocating. esp when it is done in a certain language. AHEM. inside joke.nvm, then we fin arn 7 and went for dinner at ecp. OILY LIKE MAD. bt nvm, once in a while. hahaha. oh, we talked non stop abt how we would know each other until we both are using walking sticks. then i thought of marlia dying and started crying while laughing. HAHAHA. wthhh. nvm, nah pix.
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ok, so last sunday.. went to carousel royal plaza with family. not many picts cz i was too busy eating. AAAAAH!
last saturday, it was SPEECH DAY. talks are boring as usual, the performance got me nodding. hahaha. bt the dance thingy was ok lah, nice lah! and OMG. i miss cedar like crazyshit can? it was nice to see familiar faces everywhere. sat next to kay wei and lixian (in btwn them lah). funny like mad. lixian ah lixian. fated like crazy ah? since sec 3 you sit by my side. hahaha. =) and of c, with a camera, i wont get bored.
up next, my baby love. I LOVE HIM SO MUCH THAT MY HEART IS GOING TO BURST SOON. im very happy/glad/amused that he laughs at everything i do more than at anyone else. maybe he is just laughing AT me. hahaha, but who cares? i miss him like giler. i wana squash him until he POPS! but only i can do that hor. anyone dare to hurt him, i make sure you can see the back of your head. HEEHEEHEE. BADAAAAAAAAAAAM! =)
ohkay dokay, im off to madrasah now.
i am so confused that i refuse to think anymore. if i start running away, its coz im scared of what i will say.
i miss kicking balls.
1:03 PM
Friday, April 03, 2009
{disgusting habis}hey yo. omg, internet at home sucks. ok no, laptop suck. so im in com lab nw. mhm.i have many things to blog about, bt nw like basi. hahaha. i must say this. OMG, YOU MADE ME PUKE JUST BY LOOKING AT YOUR FACE.i cnt believe ppl cn be so perasaan and gatal. omg. cannot stand it. i want to die already. burok habis babe.ok, I AM OFFICIALLY GONA MALU MYSELF ON STAGE ONCE AGAIN THIS YEAR BUT ALONG WITH MARLIA AND NURUL ALSO. wahahaha. yay! funness. if only............ haiyo, life would be so much better.season is starting next wed. it will be a good one.and oh, i realise i dont even have time to shit at home cz my main aim is to finish my work, pack my back, iron my uni and go to sleep asap. whenever i step home after sch, i feel this amazing relieve in me.hahaha, got training later. YAY! =)bubbye world. i shall be back very soon. but seriosuly lah, you frigging ugly.
