9:48 PM
Saturday, January 31, 2009
i have not waited for any calls this anxiously before.me and marlia are gg mad cming up with reasons why our ogl never call. HAHAHAHA. we are schooless. nobody wants us.CALL ME CALL ME CALL ME.OR YOU WANT ME CALL YOU? HAHAHA.
2:19 PM
I AM FREAKING OUT.1. I AINT GOT NO PENS, NO PENCILS, NO ERASERS, NO RULERS.2. I SNEEZED 15000000000 AND MY EYES ARE WATERY AND I AM COUGHING.3. MY DAD ZOOMED OFF TO JOHORE WITH THE CAR.4. I HAVE A ZIT HAPPILY EXPANDING ON MY LEFT CHEEK.5. I ONLY HAVE ONE MORE FREAKING DAY TO SLEEP TILL FOREVER WITHOUT CARING ABOUT THE S-C-H-O-O-L.HOLY SHITES. WHY THE HELL DID TIME FLY SO QUICKLY? WHY WHY WHYYYYYYYYYYY? I HAD MANY MANY PLANS FOR THE HOLIDAYS AND YET IVE ONLY COMPLETED HALF OF IT. HOLY COW. SOMEBODY PLEAAAAAAAAAAAASE, BRING ME BACK TO THAT DAY I SIT FOR THE SCI MCQ.I WANA FEEL FREE AGAIN. I WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAANT.AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ok, ppl tell me i have the tendency to vent my anger right here on my blog. and i agree with them.STUPID NOSE. STOP MAKING ME RUB YOU. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!SOMEBODY HELP ME.
1:10 PM
{you think you are so smart eh?}i feel so freaking sleepy. must be cz of all the online shopping yesterday. WHOOPEE. i cnt wait for the hoodie to come! AAAAAAAAAAAAAH! i love it. love love it.so yes, i have my shoes. so freakin eggcited. hahaha, i hate first days of school. i feel like a total loser. i wonder hw monday would be. aiyo.i want to slp. bye.
1:06 PM
Friday, January 30, 2009
i suddenly feel so sad. my mummy daddy nt on gd terms and my daddy has been slping outside for two days. and i feel really sad for him. as in really. he talked to nobody at home cz im just a stupid daughter who doesnt talk much. and i realised that he has been working uber hard for us and all that i am enjoying nw is thanks to him, toiling away outside. i wonder how tough it is to be so stressed up at work and when he got home, he cnt even talk to anybody. i feel so sorry and sad for him but i just am not the kind to get close to my dad. i actulayy wanted to sleep outside with him but its just too late to get closer to my dad. i just love him alot.
10:45 AM
{may your wish be what you wish for}
we are not stars. WE ARE SUPERSTARS. hahaha. no matter which direction life takes us to, may our friendship never cease to die. i hope.
and that girl up there, had her butt stuck to me since primary one. and she will have it stuck for another two years. hahahaha. i wonder what other embarassing things she would do for the next two years.i guess the vee loved us more than the tee. hehehe.oh oh, my tear just dropped.
11:59 PM
Thursday, January 29, 2009
{AHAHAHAHAHAHA}LEMME DO THAT AGAIN. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.ok, somebody just told me to go smwhere cz smbody just perasaan-ed about sth. HAHAHAHAHA. i cannot help but laugh sia.OMG. small boy, you get your facts right before you open your mouth.B T W, my freakin feet is fucking cute. W T V M L.
9:58 PM
{i hate you}GET OVER IT. GET. OVER. IT.i came up with it. you have no frigging right to copy me. i wana slap your freaking face. nonono, that will dirt my hand. do you know who you are? obviously not. cz ur ego is as big as your freaking feet. yucks. you disgust the shit out of me.i. hate. you.
3:44 PM
{roar}hehehe. sucha cute pictureeeee.OMG. DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA WHAT DAY IT IS 2MOROOOOOOOO? omg omg omg. so scary. i dowan to check my phone. i dnt wanna wake up early early 2moro. i dowan. nonononononono.ok. i dnt hv any idea what else to talk abt.so bubbye. =)
6:55 PM
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
{i get it when im not wanted}today sucked. big time. my head is spinning and my stomach is having sm party inside there and my freaking lunch, OH WAIT, i did NOT have my lunch.after the stupid car inspection thing, went to meet sis at bdk south. then went to interchange for sm insurance shit. mum wanna go jb so poof, we went.BUT GUESS WHAAAAAAAAAAAT, sm stupid miscommunication between the two led to mum's water pipe bursting and dad's volcano errupting. all i did was cross my fingers and hope we get to kota raya so than i can stuff myself with the tom yam and yummy food. BUT NNNNNOOOOOOOOO, dad had to be stubborn and POOF we zoomed back to woodylands. i was so angry. and woozy.and yeah, im freaking hungry. not only for food, but for sth else too.but i mean, who the fuck am i to you guys anyway?wait, nobody even read this shit blog here. this is a real pool of shit. im trying hard nt to swear much. hehehe.I WANA CLIMB ONTO MY BED AND JUMP DOWN HEAD FIRST SO THAT MY HEADACHE WILL GO AWAY. will it work? i dont know.I WANT MY LUNCH. and i hate hate hate hate this woozy feeling.AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!oh, one more thing. i cannot wait for sch to start. you wanna know why? i just answered that question but deleted it away cz IT MIGHT BREAK SOME HEARTS. BOOHOO. hw come nobody cared when they break my heart? im an angel.
11:59 AM
{everything will be fine}whoopeeeey! i have a new friend. she has a surname philips. and her full name is KATELYN PHILIPS. she is pink. and she promised to "focus her airflow for a polished, shiny look". i adopted her yesterday as i was strolling around robinsons. hehehe. YAY!do you know what she is?so yes, i felt like a queen yesterday. i plopped all the things i wanted into that robinsons bag and burnt my fats as i scour through all 6 levels. it was heavenly.after robinsons, went off to my 2nd sis house to lepak for a while. aha, went for dinner at the place next to makmur rest. woah, my meeee bandung was super awesome. if felt real good seeing it chugged down around the table, cz the more they ate, the less i eat. the less fat i consume. yuppy!then, we head to GAY-LANG to chug down some $135 worth of LULIANS. woah, supersuper sinful. i loveeee it.reached home around 11 sth. slept and woke up at 11 sth. that is a whole 12 hours. goodness.gg to sm car inspection later, then mummy wanna go shop at carrefour. not at suntec sadly. at johore. pfft. bye spore.and marliaaaaaaaaaaaa, we gotta do what we ought to do veryveryvery soon!booooob.
12:47 PM
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
{bride wars}
hello! i had breakfast at my 2nd sister's house and lunch at my 1st sister's house and dinner at downtown east. woah. hahaha. thank god for cny. everybody's not working! yaaaaaaaaaay!
then we caught a midnight movie at century. BRIDE WARS was awe-some! damn funny. and cute. and girly. i LOVE it. hehehe.
gg off to robinson's sale later with them again. shopshopshop.
oh, yesterday night WAS HELL. i was tossing and turning all over my super shakey(?) bed. (oh hafiza just called me to tell she bought patrick star from ayer hitam). i didnt sleep until 3 sth. crazy. stupid and crazy.
OK, gots to go nowww. SHOOOOOOOOOOOOP! =)
12:37 PM
Monday, January 26, 2009
ok, daddy painted that. not really into the deco on the mirrors. will do sth about it.
plans to go batam and ecp for picnics gone with the wind.my mum wanna go kl. i dont agree.i am pissed.
2:45 PM
Sunday, January 25, 2009
i feel so useless, like i have always felt. you were the one who always made me feel good about myself, but now you just throwing it all away. i guess you have your own reasons. but i really feel like nobody needs me now. nobody is wondering hw i am feeling, hw i am doing. nobody wants to know whats gg on. well, i think i know why. im a nobody to everybody. i wonder if crying helps.
9:24 AM
Saturday, January 24, 2009
{you make me wanna punch you in the face}got kenduri at my house today. my mum is being the usual kanchiong queen who wants everything to be in place. i woke up to a super clean room. all my stuffs have been re-arranged. haha, thank youuu. i almost missed a step this morning. nasib baik tak mampos. later it will be a kenduri arwah for me too. teehee.ok, gots to go. i wana climb ONTO my bed. hahaha, love the sound of that.and please, i need you now.
6:22 PM
Friday, January 23, 2009
{i wanted to call you. but i know you wont be there}soooooooooooo, i have not been updating heh. hahaha, i cnt even remember what i wanted to update abt. so yeah, i had whales and whales of time. but i can hardly remember any. heehee.aite, went to 'amirahs. ate 1 and 1/4 of a sheep. the tulang i friggin nice. it was awesome to crap with the other two. the 'ting' from the temple is one of the main highlights. hahaha.
1:57 AM
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
{when are you gonna give it up to me?}so aha, im here. in the wee hours. ask me why. why. why.only one reason why, im sleeping by myself. i hate myself for being such a kedi. it sucks manz. i wana sleep peacefully. ARGH.outing at amirah's 2moro. AH AH AH. i cannot wait. =)life has been great. uber duper great.i had a dream yesterday where i board a non- airconditioned bus while eating cup corn, to an abandoned railway track. then i crossed this longkang over a piece of wood. then, i board another bus which had the mrt woman's voice talking! then i somehow ended up on this crazy vehicle which was really hard to operate and i met with an accident, TWICE! then, it went on to me sitting on this moving swing which brought me so high up to the sky! after that i just sat by some calm and peaceful waterbody. it was a wonderful dream. a really great one. hehehehe.ooooook, off to lala land. cnt wait to meet the other threeeee!"...every night in my dreams...."
11:15 PM
Sunday, January 18, 2009
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH! its so pays to be the youngest. YAYAYAYAY!lemme see what ive got so far.*the bed of my choice with all the extra furnitures to go along.cost: $1500*the phone of my choicecost: $400*the wardrobe of my dream colour combicost: $1500*THE CAMERA WHICH WASNT EVEN ONE OF MY CHOICES BUT WAS GIVEN TO ME AS A PRESENT BY MY BROTHER AND SISTER FOR DOING WELLcost: unknownhehehehe. yeah, i have my own MINE AND ONLY MINE. ok dah, wana sleep. BUBBYE.
8:08 PM
she has the cheek to say she does not control me. she has the fucking cheek. yeah, i do go out. but i have to beg her and cry so hard so that she will let me get out of the freaking house.i am sick and tired of being treated like an overprotected kid."...I tell them what I likeWhat I wantAnd what I don'tBut everytime I doI stand corrected (Cooorrected)Things that I've been toldI can't believe what I hear about the worldI realize I'm o-o-verprotected..."you tell her britney.
6:30 PM
stupidtstupidstupid.i have been adding on to my weight by swallowing spoons after spoons after spoons of sinful stickychewy and that sutpid rocky road hot thingy with stupidly mouthwatering butterscotch on top, enough to make a nun chug down a cow.grrrrrrr. i am veryveryveryvery pissed off. i didnt know people/kids from the same family can be so damn freaking stupid that they cnt even THINK FOR HEAVENS' SAKE. you have a stupid brain for a freaking reason. why dont you move your stupid big fat ass and THINK. an example of what just took place:"here, there is an apple, a strawberry and a durian. all adds up to 30. if you remove the apple, it will only add up to 20. so how much value does the apple carry?".....*stares into blank space while crying*.....-end of example-so you tell me, AM I THE STUPID ONE TO NOT UNDERSTAND THAT YOU ARE JUST PLAIN STUPID? maybe. MAAAAAAAAAAYBE.i lose my temper real fast when there are stupid ppl arn me. so if i dont lose my temper around you, you are not stupid. hahahaha.and so the stupid princess cries. not for the first time. every time she studies, she cries. SO AM I IMMUNE TO IT OR WHAAAAAAAAAT? my mom have the cheek to scold me. SHE HAS THE FREAKING CHEEK. i give up. i will NEVER EVER teach her EVER AGAIN. (like real.)so yes, moving on. life has been filled with swensens.i eat swensens more than macs now. zomg. all the money, and the FATS. i cannot freaking wait for sch to start. hahaha, thats IF i get into that zombie-gundupokly amazing hard to get into sch. AND, if i do get in AND THAT SI-TU-PIT katak girl get in too, i make sure i shine MORE than her. we have a silent competition gg on. hahaha.HAIYAK. i am expecting a real fun-filled day very soon! ANDANDAND, i cnt wait for the amazing gathering for the four of us only. GIMME THE SAKUNIKAAAAAA! hahahaha. inside joke.AND FYI, girrrrl, are you listenin to me? ever heard of GIRL CODE? sisterhood? nah? well, lemme tell ya somethin girl. you can mess with that moron all you want, but you know what you lost? my respect for you as a human. and oh, no wonder you dont know the girl code. YOU AINT A GIRL TO BEGIN WITH.and to another girrrrl, my heart was bruised too many times by you that i cnt be bothered to even check if it is still beating. so yeah, my story your story. they dont tally? thats life i guess. BAH.and woooooooooooooohoooooooooooooo. i am just so so numb that i dnt even care anymore.i have a mental mom. SOMEBODY JUST SHUT HER UP.
6:59 PM
Friday, January 16, 2009
{right back at you}
today, i lost many things.
my temper, my keys, my mother's ubat.
we went to the doct so damn bloody early this morning. that one nvm. when we reached home, we realised we lost our keys. so i had to bloody walk to my sisters house to get the keys.
then after that, i lost my temper. that was when nunu's bro came over for maths lesson. i swear, my explaination was so clear that even adam anaqi would be able to do the sum already.
aha, thts him. but yeah, i tried and tried and tried. hahaha, i guess nw i know how annoying it is when you teach bt your students yawn and rub their eyes. im so sorry ms ng for always doing that during your lesson.
THEN, her majesty woke up for her med, but POOOOF it was missing. had i not rummaged thru the stupid dustbin, i wouldnt have found the stupid med, right at the base of the bin, WITH YESTERDAYS TRASH OVER IT. it just didnt make sense. bluek. i was blamed for everything.
so yeah, what a way to spend my day. i wana go out 2moro. I WANAAAAAAA.
i dont wanna go KL, i dont WANNAAAAAAAA.
yupz. i miss my friends.
1:38 PM
{do i need a reason?}hey yo. its currently 1.38 pm and i just bathed. hehehe, the only reason i decided to bathe was that my herbal essence was waiting for me. i loooove the smell and the freshywreshy fewliiing. eeks, i gotta stop talking like tht.and soooo, i have changed my mind yet again. visited the VEE so early in the morning. got scared by the hugo sch and the j2s who were all so hugo also. talked to a PE teacher and his eyesight was failing. sooo, found out what we wanted to find out. i cnt believe im might be doing chem. AM I CRAZY. no turning back. shites. but its ok. all i have to do now in suck in all the oxygen i possibly can and rock the shit out of chem. hopefully.after visting the VEE we had lunch at PP. followed by swensens rocky rod thingy on the hot pan. WOAAAH, super duper extremely sinful. should stop eating it.saw mr phone loaner at there too. hahaha, shocker heh? head home with marlili WHERE WE BOTH SEALED OUR FUTURE. sent the form, confirmed the choices."a plankton in the chinese ocean" versus "an obese whale in the chinese ocean". AHAHAHA. i cnt help but laugh.so yeah, lets patiently wait for 30th jan to come, and my phone beeping the name of the place i would be spending two years at. wheep.some people come and go in your life. were the time spent a waste to you? hahaha, looks like we mean nth. so much for filling up your time for the past four years. you reap what you sow. SO, if you didnt sow anything, dont think of reaping anything. i may have never said this to your face, but i am starting to get tired of being your shadow. i am tired of pulling you back, making you join us. this time round, you gotta let yourself choose. if all this while you were sick of us and were pretending, then i feel really bad for you. we treated one another the same way. no one more special than the other. we included you in everything, we thought you would too but did you even try? did you even try to involve yourself?OK HALT. why am i getting so emotional here. HEHEHE. my brain aint thinking right. have a great life ahead. find the boy you love and get married the royalty way you have always dreamed of. if you are making new friends, then i hope they are much better friends than us. cz we did nth much this few years to make you happy. did you try to make us happy?mummy is down under. she has been throwing up in the toilet bowl. tried to be nice and wanted to help. but i ended up puking at the other toilet. cnt cnt cnt, ask me clean pee or shit can, VOMIT, never. i will just add on to the volume. hahaha.soooooooooooooooooo, maybe, smbody cming over for free tuition later on. first time, sure. other time, PAY HOR.veeveeveeveeveeveeveeveeveeveeveeveeveeveeveeveevee.
12:26 PM
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
{its not time}my nenek has left us.inalillah wainnahlillah hi roji'un.*btw, im not properly dressed cz i didnt bring my baju kurung and hence, im in jeans. im so so so sorry.
7:15 PM
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
YOU KNOW WHAT SUCK?I HAVE A WHOLE FUCKING LIST OF WHAT SUCK.BUT I WONT SAY IT HERE. CZ I AM JUST A FUCKING IRRITATED BITCH WHO JUST WANTS SOME PEACE AND QUIET.I WANT MY DADS BUTT AWAY FROM THAT FUCKING IRRITATING COUNTRY WHICH HAS NO BLARDY RECEPTION AND IS FULL OF HOUSEFLY SO THAT MY LIFE WOULD NOT BE AS INTERRUPTED AS IT IS RIGHT NOW.I WANT MY MOM TO GET A FREAKING LIFE AND OPEN HER FREAKING EYES AND SEE THAT I AM AN ALMOST SEVENTEEN YEAR OLD TEENAGER WHO DOES NOT NEED ANY BABY SITTING.I WANT YOU, YOU STUPID FILTHY LITTLE MISS TO GET THE FUCKING HELL OUT OF MY LIFE FOR GOOD CZ NOW I REALISE HOW MUCH I HATE YOU.so we went to tee just nw. sgt cheryl gave us a tour! tee is HUGO lah. i like it, ahaha. it has a homey feel. it felt weird with stinky,loud and nerdy boys around but i will get use to it. what i like most is the cheer/dance/wtv-they-were-doing-with-their-feet thing. thats it. mind is made up. its tee. hahaha. i cn do KI but i donoe if i want to.ok, so yeah. mummys gonna be in KL till saturday or sth. so i am not allowed to be home alone HENCE, i am gg to my sisters house to sleepover. holy shites. i will have to bring my entire wardrobe. god damn it, everything just plain suck.
11:24 AM
{its not over, until i say so}ooook, i dont know how or why, i suddenly found the energy to update properly.oook, so maybe i lost it already cz sm idiot had to spoil my mood. oook, maybe i found it back. HAHAHA, cz THREE MAKCIKS JUST MADE MY DAY.btw, there was a 15 minutes gap between the three oooks.so yeah, resultsresultsresults. trust me to get my hopes up so damn frigging high. sir-too-pit ego was blardy boosted and thank god, it wasnt bruised. people imrpoved but i was stagnant. i mean, was that the best i could do? a TWO for an E? the TWO for the A was amzing lah cz considering i had NINEs since i was introduced to A. but the blardy E. tsk. but i guess my mr bean story moved my examiner since he/she may be lame enough to even watch mr bean. am i being mean? but thank you whoever you are, for giving me that one. WHEEPEE.ok enough bout results. time to think of what sch. should it be the tee or the vee? i cnt believe i am actually asking myself to conseider the vee. my brain is not suited for such a school and yet, YET, my bloody ego is in the way of what maybe the choice that determines my future. TEE OR VEE? ok enough about depressing stuffs. oh oh oh, the three makciks.first, fierce aunty. cuzzie's mommy. the last time she congratulated me was during PSLE. and now she did it again. it trulytrulytruly moved me that even tho i can count the number of words i said during family gathering, people, relatives, actually care about me. like,THEY KNOW I AM ALIVE. tammy bammy who called me an irritating rat, if you are reading this, THEY KNOW WE ARE ALIVE. hahaha, oh yes, CONGRATULATIONS JAMMY WOOOOOOOOOOOONG! =)second, kepo aunty who is not my aunty but claims to be my mother in law. she called specifically to ask hw much i got and went on and on about how "badly' her son did. maybe to make me say that "NO LAAAH, THAT IS NOT THAT BAD! wooooooooooooow!". but too bad i didnt. HEHEHE. thirdly, my aunty, my own flesh and blood. she said i should go vee. hahaha, i felt like asking her to go and study and take As for me. cn cn? if cn i go vee.ok dah, marlia is rushing me to go get ready to go to tee open house.enjoy the pixie picts. i will update more later. muacks muacks muacks!
KL TRIP WITH MARLIA.
sister's wedding picts. more in shutterfly, later. hehehe.
new year's eve sleepovaaaa!
all ryte, i'll be back soon! =)
4:21 PM
Monday, January 12, 2009
{O LEVELS RESULTS}ok, i know i have not been updating. i have been ultra busy. i was away to kl for the past three days, with marlia AHAHA.bt nw i cnt update also. wanna know whyyy? cz my daddy's mummy, my nenek is in critical condition, so we are gg jb, like right now.and yeah, o levels results. i got what wanted, maybe not exactly, bt who cares? WHEEEPEEE. eighteighteighteighteighteighteighteight.bubbye.and sorry?
4:46 PM
Thursday, January 08, 2009
omgahhh. finally i found the courage and strength to update. but i cnt be long, im needed smwhere. been busy, NOT. ok maybe kinda. i dont make sense.ok, i'll update PROPERLY. i swear. i hope marlia comes later. PLEASEPLEASEPLEASE. its very important that you do come. hahaha, wheee. =)GTG. stupid headache, and heartache. fish, gtg. update later. byebye!
8:12 PM
Friday, January 02, 2009
happy new year.things that deserve to be mentioned.1) i have a new phone.2) we (me, marlia, elle) had a 'pig-over' at my house3) saw a certain action nak mampos guy cum singer at the resort i was staying in in johore, and felt like smacking his face4) results coming up real fucking soon5) i spent around $1500 at IKEA for my new room, WOOOHPEEEE!6) tammy called me and irritating rat7) i love to see the way you act so big cz it cracks me up8) i cannot upload any picts right nw cz my sister took the usb cable. PFFT.I FEEL LIKE LAUGHING IN YOUR FACE.
10:19 PM
Thursday, January 01, 2009
FUCK.aha, i updated. that up there, is for you.
