{i left her when ive found her}

so much i still want to say.
so much i still want to do.
sth ive held onto for so long, is leaving me just like that.
we off to achieve greater things, right?
we believe so.

i'll let the waterworks flow aite. maybe i'll feel much better. maybe.

ALL RYTE! im gonna sit for my last ever chemistry paper IN MY ENTIRE LIFE in less than 4 hourssss! maybe ah. hahaha. ok. i better move my ass now. eating tauhue before gg to sch. WOOHOOOO!

see, its so easy crack a smile

You touched my heart
you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you,
I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

{dont tell a soul goodbye}

oh my god. practical was SHIT HEAD. WTFFF. prepared?! DID SOMEBODY SAY WE WERE PREEEEEEEEEPAAAAAAAAREDDDD?!

PREPARED FOR WHAT? prepared to fail? ohmygod. what a spolier. WHAT A WAY TO START MY OS! zomg. last year's practical and all the bloody practicals that we did were BLOODY HELL EASY! what happened? oh my god. i am suddenly damn scared. WHY MUST WE BE SO JINXED. hahaha, i am gg crazy.

ok, its gonna be noon = ready to muggy mug again. =)

i love mugging. hahaha. almost done with geogggg. WOOHOO. ok dah. bye bye.

and you know what? im gg all soft again. BOOOOO!

{if our love was a fairytale}

jalan raya was awesomeeee. but it'll be much better with more people.

im sorry, bt i wont be updating abt it cz i am studying now. hahaha, wow, so seriousss. bt yes, i am. so later ah. wait one month, after os i will update.

and yeah, i am so annoyed.

all of you suck big time. BIG TIME I SAY. kanasai. oh wait, i realise this will apply to TWO bunch(es?) of people.

i hate you. i know hate is a veryveryvery strong word, but that is exactly how i feel towards you. hatred. i hate you so much. even though i dont even know you that well, i really do hate you. everytime i read what you have got to say, i cnt help bt feel how needy and desperate and loser you are. i hate you. i feel like bursting coz i HATE YOU SO DAMN MUCH. its nt supposed to be this way but you know WHAAAAAAAAT? I HATE YOU. i dont care who you are to me, I HATE YOU. wow. i really do hate you!

hahahaha, im glad i got that off my chest.

my fucking blisters are annoying. why must they create such beautiful heels? i cnt believe i let my feet suffer just cz they look too cute to refuse. AAH! i love youuuu heelsssss! hahahaha.

im gg mad.

mood swings.

babababababa.

ok, i have 3 minutes left to start my chemistry again. oh wait, im not done with planning my time table. ADIOS!

and oh, i hate you so much.

and you also, fucker. i shall call you that heh? fits you. fucker. HAHAHA. =D

{say it loud}

i had a very disgusting dream.

anyways, practical in 4 days. Z.O.M.G.

o levels starting. HOLY COW. i should really calm myself down and START studying late into the night. I WANA MUG. I WANA MUG. I WANA MUG. hahaha.

ok, i will have the last day of fun 2MORO. coz you wanna know whyyyy? COZ THE REMBAT GANG IS GONNA PAINT THE TOWN BLOOOODY REEEEED! YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!

hahaha, we gg jalan raya. nak ikot? cannot. must make membership first. HEHEHE.

all ryte,i shall go muggymug now.

i love mugging.

seriously. teehee.

i came back to say that i miss my kawan kawan.

i think the morning breakfast we had was really cute. we should go PICK-A-NICK togeda-geda after os! then we still have kara-OK, and visiting changi hospital and partying at smbody's house and MANYMANYMANY more.

hahaha, oh my goodness, i smell freedom coming my way.

i shall work my ass off from now on. to satisfy my needs! HAHAHA.

and seriously, where the heck are you? tsk.

{ i wish you would look at me the same way again. it makes me wonder sey. my control tower gets mixed up because whyyy.. because you were giving me mixed signals.}

os coming. os coming. os coming.

FCUK THE SCHOOL.

pandanglah lihatlaaah!

awwww, classic shot.

i couldnt resist.

AQI TAKDA GIGI! =)

{my romeo. my romeo.}


hello there. woah, sch now is more productive. its maybe coz sch is not like normal sch. HAHAHA, nt making sense.


anyways, been gg to sch in nc-based shirts. goodness, i miss those times where gg to sch in those shirts do really mean sth. not that it doesnt now, but its different nw aint it? hmph.

ok, my tuition is starting in 15 minutess! i am eggcited. HAHAHA, i shall ask her alllllll the questions that i dont know. provided i can find them. BETTER START NOOWWW!

ok bye people. muacks! =)

{with nothing but your t shirt on}

i tried to let go but it was a foolish move. lets enjoy the days and the nights baby. =)

i went to school. i laughed with tammy. i ate prata KOYAK KOYAK campur kuah. i went to get a new calculator. i went to bedok library. i did paper 1 and 2 of victoria maths paper. i went to buy mee goreng and tauhue. i went home. i switched on my laptop. and now im scared.

mug.mug.mug.mug.

ive gotta start banging my head against my textbooks.

ok, i shall go nowwww. HAHAHA. this is crazy.

hafiza is such an awesome gundu pok. (=

{it WASNT me}

so hello.

i missed maths. BUUUUULLLSHITTT.

ok bye. i have things to do.

ADIOS.

{here we go again}

I, SITI NADZIRAH BINTE HASSAN, HAS BEEN PART OF THE CEDAR FAMILY SINCE JANUARY 2005 TILL DECEMBER 2008.

I, CHARLIE '08 2ND IC/1ST SGT SITI NADZIRAH BINTE HASSAN, HAS BEEN PART OF THE MAJESTIC CEDAR NCC SINCE JANUARY 2005 TILL DECEMBER 2008.

I, PUNY GIRL, HAS BEEN AND WILL ALWAYS BE, PART OF THE REMBAT GANG ANG GANG SPOSEN SINCE FOREVER TILL FOREVER.

hahahaha, that was super random.

holy cow, i have graduated from CEDAR GIRLS' SECONDARY SCHOOL. i am school-less. WOOHOOOO! I AM FREEEEEEEE! hahahaha. but BOOHOO, i want my kawan kawan. =(

ive said all that ive wanted to say to every one and hence, i dont think i have to repeat myself here at my blog anymore.

just a SUPER MEGA GIGANTIC HUGOMONGUS THANK YOU to the lovelies that made the past four years an amazing journey for me.

i think i have grown so much. changed so much. learnt so much. i was a gundu sec1 with meanders on my head. and now, i am a veryvery tak tau malu person who feels so grown. do i make sense? probably not. hahahaha.

so anyways, grad day rehearsal was fun because of the dancing on the bench. SIAK AH, we cannot go clubbing. we will destry everything there. HAHAHA. we rock. =)

sooo, grad day. i slept at 4 to finish up prezzie. just needed to put that in. =D

the memories will me in my head, and heart forever. here are picts for your viewing pleasure.

my shutterfly.

WAIT. this is the picture of the day siaaaa! WOOOHOOO!


ok check this out.

hafiza: AKU SUMPAH! aku tak kluar dengan afiq!
nurul : jangan tipu ah hafiza! aku tampar muka kau!
nabila: sabar nurul sabar! RELAAAAX!
marlia: YA ALLAH! BOLEH DIAM TAK?!


my tiara. =)

my roseeeeee.

i was raped.

circle of loooove.

check us out!

2M2M2M2M2M2M2M2M2M2M2M2M.

KIYAAAHHH.

eeeeeks!

ROAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAR!

I love you all.

4s looooove.

mummy mum.

didiyayanana.

you made me love geog.

hahahaha.

" i hate you so much that i love you. "

ok ok ok, REMBAT GANG! =)

VICTORY RUN!

water babies.

hahahaha.

tai chiiii.


HAHAHAHA. malaydance.

HIAAAAAAAAAAAK!

FLYING KICK.

check nabila and elle out!

SERANG MARLIAAA!

nurul's best friend died.

now she has two of them.

grad day gifts. =)


and yeap. thats all. actually, there's more. hahaha, but no time.

crying at the bench made me sad.

hugging tammy in the hall made me sad.

what was not done, made me super sad.

do we not mean anything? we were that bad? sure if you dont like us, but we have feelings mind you. how could you, all of you. are you trying to say all that we did were not even enough to gain your respect(s)? wow, so much for caring for you all. seriously.

you will only have one batch of them. if they hurt you, it clearly reflects how much you mean to them. nothing.

{ i am fugging stressed}

zomg. HARI RAAAYAAA. =)


that was in the morning, baru bangun tidooo.


whats a girl to do when she has a mirror and a cameraaa.

then it was off to mami kah's house. note the purrrpleeee.


my mom with SARAH and my aunty with ANAQI! nenekkkksss.

macam mabok heh?

this kueh is so damn cool.

and yeap, so rayaaaaaaa. at malaysiaaaaaa, was funnnnnn.

BUT TODAY, this blooody morning. was wayyyy funner.

HAHAHA, we reached sch at 6.45 AM! well, only nurul. the rest came around 7 liddat.

hahaha, gedebak-gedebuk, wait for bus, then we CABOT to pp macs for breakfast. ahahaha, thot of gg back to sch by end of first period. sekali tuuu, by the time dah habis makan, we had to little time to get back to sch. AND SOOO, we decided that, maybe the 2nd period. so lalala, we decided to walk back to old cedar.

and when i saw, the foyer, the courtyard, the flagraising area, all gone.... it made me reallyreally sad. the place where i shed tears, laughed and bleed, all gone. i could still remember the huge courtyard. the sea of blue when we look down from flagraising area is amazing. oh myy, i miss the old cedar. =(

and then, we decided to go back to sch. enuffff of skipping lessons. SEKALI TU, when we reach the bus stop.. HAHAHA, we decided, third period was boring. so halfway thru waiting thrid period to be overrr, my stuupid tummy had to buat hal.

so we went to the swimming pool's toilet. i discovered sth damn scary. =(

so we went back to sch afterrr that. OH, I FORGOT, elle INJURED her ankle. HAHAHA, actually no, but it looks real. hahaha, and yup, she wore sandals with a fake bandage. tsk tsk tsk.
entering sch was no biggie. =)

then when i finally sat next to tammy, i started telling her everything that happened! it just came naturally. when one by one, the periods ended, i felt as tho the pages of my storybook of cedar is nearing the last. they said their goodbyes, we said our thank yous. i cannot believe it. no more asking whats next period. no more dreading to go to chem to see mr kang. no more rushing maths hwk cz lumpy wanted to see them.

my god.

i have no more official school days in cedar. nope, nope, no waterworks. tammy told me to save it for saturday.

ok, i dont wanna blog anymore.

its making me depressed.

right now, my friends are everything to me. =)